Calm Casualties

लफ्ज़ों के सहारे अक्सर मुशायरे जीत लिया करते थे पर अब तो जैसे खंडहरों का बुत हो गया हूँ मैं, शायरी भूल गया हूँ मैं। यूँ तो हमने लोगों से हमेशा ही नज़रें चुराईं थी लेकिन दीदार-ए-...

Another year is gone Another year is waiting Lots of dreams, lots of hope All of sorts, falling and raising Another list of resolutions Which is never going to be followed Aiming high, ignoring the reality That it is just momentary and hollowed. Now when I think, analyse The past few years They all were the same With same all joy, with same all tears. Now I know that The new year is never meant to be different It will be the same again With same dry start, with same dead end. Crappy New Year!

Few days ago while you were mine. I was so happy for owning a soul divine. I felt so lucky that my wishes came true. But I was a fool, a stupid wearing one shoe. One shoe was with me, and one shoe was missing. First shoe was of affection, and other one of trusting. You thought me a moron, that I was a player. Well, you were so wrong, but me, I never cared. As one should understand, the other one's silence. Yeah, you took me wrong, now look into my eyes. It was you forever, just you and no one else. You may never heard of it or I might never told you this. I see my world now falling apart, I see you gone. I'm not gonna ask you back, I'll continue to be a moron. 'Cause this is me, and you loved me for it once. This is why you happened to me, for good or for worse. Keeping my eyes ground-ward, searching for my another shoe. I miss you so, an I hope you miss me too.

Kabhi hamare sath chalkar Kabhi hamare sath rehkar Tum chale gaye achanak Hamari zindagi badalkar Tum the tow lagta tha ab na koi khwahish hogi. Tum the tow lagta tha ab na koi farmaish hogi. "Jaane khuda kyu rehemgir hai mujh par? Ya mujhe tolne ki koi aazmaish hogi." Phir hua bhi kuch yun hi, tum kho gaye jaane kidhar. Jaane kaise ikk hui ye raah aur meri nazar. Hum dekhte hi reh gaye aur aashiyaana jalta reh gaya Bebas tow jaane kab se the, lo ho gaye ab beghar. Yaado ke saaye tow sath hain mere har dam, har pal, Katl karte hain mujhe, har ghadi ban mera kaatil. Fir bhi jeeye jaa rahe hain hum issi ummeed mein Aao shayad laut ke inn panaaho me phir tum kal.

I hate it high, I hate so hard. That being so close. But feeling apart. To act like a human. To think much insane. To have it all. But nothing to claim. Assuming you know me. Pretending you're there. Realizing it's nothing. But a sheer dream-sphere. Then I hate it much more. Like some shit so real. Trying to get over it. The memories you appeal.

Sometimes I grow, I grow so cold. Feel nothing, see nothing, have nothing to hold. But somehow I know, I hear it so loud. The sound that resonates, resonates outbound. Hurting my heart, my soul and my brain, "Bleeding and bleeding, Listening and breathing" Inhales then exhales, exhales in pain. Like raising alone, in a darksome sky, A sky without stars, stars and moonlight. Fearing the sunrays, escaping the shadows. Running so fast, dead and disclosed. In search of a place, where I can hide, "Bleeding and bleeding, Searching and seeking." Seeking so long that I went so blind. Sometimes I grow.

Live and die. Love and cry. My world has just two faces, mine and thy. My dream is to chase you. Even across all skies. I know I have no wings, but I still wanna fly. I know, I'll fall. I know my future is dry. But still, I will stand up, flutter my wings and try.   This life is full of sorrows. This planet is filled with pains. The wounds I have will never heal, heart-aches,blunt cuts and boggling strains. Pulping out the memories, to get back those moments. The moments I had you, and this aint a lie. My world has just two faces, mine and thy.

Was it my fault, or were they yours? Or was it the time, what was so coarse? Like a pair of curtains, we drifted apart. Holding same pole, but hanging so far. Staring at void, I saw you in tears. But they were just stars, as sky got more clearer. I shape you in fog, in mist, in water. I feel you around, every moment, like air. Someday, I hope, the curtains will be closer, Hiding the insight, together and forever. Blocking the sun-rays, the meddlers, to come in. Escaping from the world, and continue what we were dreaming...