Calm Casualties

I will kill him tonight. A person who has never done any wrong. I will crush him quick, and drain him dry. He has longed for this day, and for so long. His sin was he loved, he cared. Now he will be thumped for this, and dazed. I tried to stall him, as for this, he was to be slayed. Salvation will be hurled upon him, as his arrogance always prevailed. Enacting the hangman, I will carry the death to him. But the sinner resides in my own soul, hence I will, solely, be the victim.

The day I saw you, was the day I thought, "No, this is not gonna happen. " The day I got you was the day I thought, "Well, I like it. Let it happen." The day you left me was the day I thought, "Damn, How can this happen?" The day I overcame was the day I thought, "Maybe that was something meant to happen." And there was a day, when I saw you again, cracked down and prayed, "Oh God! For a single time, again, let it be the same as it was happened."

Few days ago while you were mine. I was so happy for owning a soul divine. I felt so lucky that my wishes came true. But I was a fool, a stupid wearing one shoe. One shoe was with me, and one shoe was missing. First shoe was of affection, and other one of trusting. You thought me a moron, that I was a player. Well, you were so wrong, but me, I never cared. As one should understand, the other one's silence. Yeah, you took me wrong, now look into my eyes. It was you forever, just you and no one else. You may never heard of it or I might never told you this. I see my world now falling apart, I see you gone. I'm not gonna ask you back, I'll continue to be a moron. 'Cause this is me, and you loved me for it once. This is why you happened to me, for good or for worse. Keeping my eyes ground-ward, searching for my another shoe. I miss you so, an I hope you miss me too.

Kabhi hamare sath chalkar Kabhi hamare sath rehkar Tum chale gaye achanak Hamari zindagi badalkar Tum the tow lagta tha ab na koi khwahish hogi. Tum the tow lagta tha ab na koi farmaish hogi. "Jaane khuda kyu rehemgir hai mujh par? Ya mujhe tolne ki koi aazmaish hogi." Phir hua bhi kuch yun hi, tum kho gaye jaane kidhar. Jaane kaise ikk hui ye raah aur meri nazar. Hum dekhte hi reh gaye aur aashiyaana jalta reh gaya Bebas tow jaane kab se the, lo ho gaye ab beghar. Yaado ke saaye tow sath hain mere har dam, har pal, Katl karte hain mujhe, har ghadi ban mera kaatil. Fir bhi jeeye jaa rahe hain hum issi ummeed mein Aao shayad laut ke inn panaaho me phir tum kal.

I hate it high, I hate so hard. That being so close. But feeling apart. To act like a human. To think much insane. To have it all. But nothing to claim. Assuming you know me. Pretending you're there. Realizing it's nothing. But a sheer dream-sphere. Then I hate it much more. Like some shit so real. Trying to get over it. The memories you appeal.

So you think I've got an attitude problem. Perhaps, you caught a perception problem. ;)  (Curtains Call) If you're waiting for a 'Hi' or 'Hello' to start with Then I must tell you, I just don't do that & I can't help it. I can't act sweet all the time cuz being a friend means much more. I don't seem to be, but yeah, I do care for sure. Sometimes I fake around you cuz I like it when I see you smile. It's easy to flaunt the truth but what if it'll apart us like miles? All I'm trying is to hold, to save this relationship. Of course I'm trying hard, so hard, to fix this emotive shit. But again If I'm hurting you like a heartache & causing you cry. Just let me know baby, I'll escape from your world and without asking why. Or all you could do is to leave me alone.. At your own.

Live and die. Love and cry. My world has just two faces, mine and thy. My dream is to chase you. Even across all skies. I know I have no wings, but I still wanna fly. I know, I'll fall. I know my future is dry. But still, I will stand up, flutter my wings and try.   This life is full of sorrows. This planet is filled with pains. The wounds I have will never heal, heart-aches,blunt cuts and boggling strains. Pulping out the memories, to get back those moments. The moments I had you, and this aint a lie. My world has just two faces, mine and thy.

Was it my fault, or were they yours? Or was it the time, what was so coarse? Like a pair of curtains, we drifted apart. Holding same pole, but hanging so far. Staring at void, I saw you in tears. But they were just stars, as sky got more clearer. I shape you in fog, in mist, in water. I feel you around, every moment, like air. Someday, I hope, the curtains will be closer, Hiding the insight, together and forever. Blocking the sun-rays, the meddlers, to come in. Escaping from the world, and continue what we were dreaming...