Calm Casualties

Another year is gone Another year is waiting Lots of dreams, lots of hope All of sorts, falling and raising Another list of resolutions Which is never going to be followed Aiming high, ignoring the reality That it is just momentary and hollowed. Now when I think, analyse The past few years They all were the same With same all joy, with same all tears. Now I know that The new year is never meant to be different It will be the same again With same dry start, with same dead end. Crappy New Year!

I hope, they fail me. I run, they trail me. I live, they hate me. I die, they recreate me. It is not me vs 'em. It is me vs. myself. _________________________________________________________________________________ I dream to hope. I hope to dream. I live, I die, I laugh, I scream. I want the peace, not blood or wars. I want them friends, not foes or false. All I want is a life, that sets me free. No more tears, no more fears, Just two eyes, full of glee. Who Am I?

The sorrows will heat you up. The memories will beat you up. Smile anyway. The pain will lay you down. The failures will cause you moan. Try anyway. Betrayals will make you cry. Your own faults will set you die. Live anyway. Because in the end, you ll realize for sure, that you were not just a survivor, but a warrior, who was fighting against all odds.

The day I saw you, was the day I thought, "No, this is not gonna happen. " The day I got you was the day I thought, "Well, I like it. Let it happen." The day you left me was the day I thought, "Damn, How can this happen?" The day I overcame was the day I thought, "Maybe that was something meant to happen." And there was a day, when I saw you again, cracked down and prayed, "Oh God! For a single time, again, let it be the same as it was happened."

Hide from me, and you will not see my face again. Lie to me, you won't even have to speak from then. Cause me pain, I promise I won't shed a tear. Stab my back, and I'll dead. You have nothing to fear. ----x----x---- Weeded eyes, truthful lies. Mingled and tangled, the brain even cries. Chasing the reality, like a cat after mice. Matter of fate, or fact, that who'll survive. ----x----x---- I'm smiling, It doesn't mean there is nothing wrong. I convinced you so. 'Cause my lies were so strong. There is a secret stash of feeling I'm hiding inside. Sure you can see it, but it is impossible to find.

Being disturbed within the days of solitude Rhyming all night long searching for falling stars Gazing so deep that being lost in the dark Ignoring the fact that I belong here To planet earth Full of pathetic human beings Growing meany day by day Getting selfish hour by hour Betraying humanity and it's nature Killing and robbing Hating and raping.

Few days ago while you were mine. I was so happy for owning a soul divine. I felt so lucky that my wishes came true. But I was a fool, a stupid wearing one shoe. One shoe was with me, and one shoe was missing. First shoe was of affection, and other one of trusting. You thought me a moron, that I was a player. Well, you were so wrong, but me, I never cared. As one should understand, the other one's silence. Yeah, you took me wrong, now look into my eyes. It was you forever, just you and no one else. You may never heard of it or I might never told you this. I see my world now falling apart, I see you gone. I'm not gonna ask you back, I'll continue to be a moron. 'Cause this is me, and you loved me for it once. This is why you happened to me, for good or for worse. Keeping my eyes ground-ward, searching for my another shoe. I miss you so, an I hope you miss me too.